intro to my art journal.

I had to make a mixed media art journal for my 3D media class and this was my introduction. 

If you can't read my sloppy writing, it says "Even though this is the first page of the book, this is the last thing that I have written in the book.

When I started to make my art journal I was excited because I love arts and crafts. But now it's finished and I'm miserable. It has taken me two weeks to make this okay-looking art journal. If I had more time I know I could've done a better job. I'm not saying that it's bad because I know it's not, it's just not the best it can be. That's not the point though, the point is that I suffered while completing this book. I have worked on it during class time, during my afternoons at home and I've skipped sleep to finish. I wanted to finish it on a good note, but I'm not. Today I felt like I wasn't good enough; which is a recurring feeling this past year. I don't get the recognition I deserve for all of my hard work. I've put in work these past four years of high school and yet, I get no recognition which makes me think, what's the point? What's the point of working so hard and not getting anything back? It's obviously doesn't make me happy to work hard since I'm struggling. In the end, I just wanted to point out that it wasn't easy finishing this book and that I worked really hard on it. And yet, I may not get the recognition I deserve for it." 

Basically I had a rough tiring week and I was done with everything. 

The teacher said that we had to write our feelings and that was my feeling at the time. It might be too personal but I don't care. 

I just want to be recognized and congratulated for all my hard work but that's just too much to ask for.