lump in my throat.

Today, I cried watching Rachel Berry (Lea Michele) perform 'Take A Bow'. She really delivered emotion in that performance. I felt more emotion in her performance than I did with Rihanna's original. I always tear up when I listen to songs where the artist delivers emotion. It makes me emotional. Then I cried watching David Dobrik cry to the MetLife commercial that everyone watches while doing the "Try Not to Cry Challenge". I cry every time I see that commercial and seeing David Dobrik tear up made it worse. It's not a full on sobbing. I just get tear-eyed and I get that lump in My throat. I just haven't had a good cry in a couple of days and my body just wants to let it out. I have a minimum of one mental breakdown a week while I've been in college. And my body just wanted to speed the next one up. I ended up watching old videos of me dancing with a dance group I used to be in and it made me sadder! I miss dancing! I miss being in a dance group! I'm not a good dancer but I miss it! Then it made me remember the people I used to be close with and it made me feel worse. I miss having friends. I then started listening to sad songs to just full on cry and get it over with BUT I didn't cry and I'm just now stuck with the lump in me throat.